Current Mood:

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Hey guys!  So why did I post a GIF of Tate from American Horror Story?  Maybe because he’s hot, or maybe it’s my current mood.

I’ve been down lately and I’m not sure why or how I have this.

I don’t know what else to say, really.  I just thought that I’d be real and raw with you guys.


“Did You Keep Your Promise?”

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Mark Fischbach (also known as Markiplier) has asked an important question on one of his videos today:

Did you keep your promise?

So, what he meant was, “Did you keep your new year’s resolution?”  That was a great question, and that made me think.  I didn’t make a new year’s resolution, but I should tell you that I pick a word that I’ll try to fulfill in the new year.  You guys, gals, and everyone in between are probably wondering what I thought of for this year.  That word is “transformation.”

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Transforming is easier said than done.  Over the last 5 months, I have transformed radically.  I went from not knowing myself to finding out who I am.  It’s scary that I found out my religion (Wicca), my thoughts, my hopes, my dreams, my passions, and even more!  It was something that caught me off guard.

So to answer your question, Mark, I did keep my promise.  I am transforming, and I’m loving every single moment of it.  Because of the promise, I am fulfilling my heart’s desires.  And I have never been happier.

So thanks, Mark, for checking in on me.  Let me know what your new year’s resolutions are and if you kept them!

Peace, love, and light, my hazelites!


Faith, Sexuality, and Gender

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So, I’m letting you guys know that I am not bashing any religion; I’m just informing you guys about how all of this stuff works.  Let’s talk about gender, sexuality, and religion and how they affect one another.

Truth be told, I’m still playing around with gender in a safer environment.  I wear masculine shirts from time to time, and I feel kind of melancholy when I go and wear women’s clothing.  So, I might be a male.  Shocker there.  Anyways, which religion accepts transgender people?  Christianity, Islam, and Judaism (commonly known as the Abrahamic religions) know that God gives you this assigned sex (not gender, sex) for a reason.  You are not allowed to change it regardless.  What about Buddhism?

Buddhism is one of those philosophy-religions, as I like to say.  There’s no God that you have to appease.  However, there is some principle that people tend to forget about: you are supposed to be working towards nirvana (a heaven-like state) by releasing your physical wants from this world.  You could believe in this if you wanted to take some hormones and wanted surgery, but that would make you a hypocrite.

This leaves a couple of religions, and as a matter of fact, they are accepting of transgender people: Hinduism and Paganism.

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The religion I ended up choosing was Paganism, which is taught to be bad by radical Abrahamic religion leaders, but it isn’t.  There are different paths, but I follow a Wiccan path.  There’s usually a God and Goddess you worship, and they vary from person to person.  There are holidays known as Sabbats, and there’s also full moons you celebrate known as Esbats.  If you want me to go into detail about this religion, please leave me a comment or question down below about this religion.

I don’t know too much about Hinduism, but they, along with Paganism, are accepting of being gay, bisexual, etc.  When it comes to sexuality, I noticed that a lot more religions, such as certain branches of Christianity and Buddhism, condone homosexual behavior.  That is quite a shock.

Another thing I would like to say is that when you have both characteristics (such as being gay AND transgender), it’s much harder to find a religion.

Well, there’s my take on it.  What do you guys think?  I’d like to hear your answers below!

That’s it for this blog! Let me know if there’s anything you want me to cover in the near future.

Have a great night/day/whatever!  Peace, love, and light, guys!

Health & Beauty

Start of Something New

Guess who’s natural? That’s right! This… person! I went to the beauty salon and decided to go through with the Big Chop! It feels so weird going through this but I love it so much. And, if you look at the picture, you can see a curl to my hair! 

So, what exactly is the Big Chop? 

It’s a haircut that involves chopping off all of your relaxed/permed hair and returning the rest of your new growth into a natural state. That’s it. 

It’s a big deal, mostly because everyone would love curls, but… I don’t mind. 

Comment below if you guys love this style on me! I plan on growing it out. 

Gender Questioning

Exploring Gender: Dressing in Male Clothing

Hey, guys!

Today I wanted to share my experience about yesterday’s gender journey. For the first time ever, I wore all male clothing (a plaid shirt, dress pants, and sneakers). 

The first thing I want to share is the mental shift I had. It was as if the time passed, and you know, I also felt more like a male as the time passed. It was rather interesting. I even forgot my birth name, or rather, it didn’t feel natural. My voice shifted to a lower tone, and that shocked me. 

Then there were the reactions. 

My mom didn’t like my shirt because it was too baggy around the sleeves. She had no idea it was a men’s shirt. However, she didn’t ask me to change. That was a shocker. And then my grandmother found my shirt to be nice. She’s more supportive, but blindly supportive. And the best part was while I was at work. People didn’t say much of anything. It made me feel powerful. 

The next gender journey I’ll have is tomorrow. I’m taking my extensions out today, and… I’m getting my hair cut to a boy’s length. I’m calling it “going natural” because it sounds more stealthy than what my true intentions are. Don’t worry; I’ll share pictures with you and see what happens. 

I shall talk to you next time! 

Peace, love, and good vibes! Hope you have a nice day/night!  

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In the Beginning…

Hello, all! 

I go by Hazel, and you can call me Haze for short. I’m learning how to be myself, and that means exploring gender and such. I’m also going to be sharing my hair journey with you guys, so expect a lot of selfies. 

This is me currently. I have faux locs in, but to be honest, I’m going to get the Big Chop. For those of you that don’t know what that is, it’s a haircut that’ll take away all of the relaxed hair and leave you with natural hair. I’m scared, but excited. 

This may not be the only journey I might take. I may become mostly vegan and work out and such. I’ll blog about my school journey. Basically, I’ll share my life with you, and I hope I’m interesting enough. (This is the part where you say that it’s okay, that I’m interesting.) 

I would love to be a professional blogger one day. Consider this as practice. 

Anyways, I’m going to end this post right here. Peace, love, and good vibes everywhere, guys!